It’s been awhile since I made a personal post on The Andrea Chronicles, which feels a little ironic considering the fact that this blog was originally intended to be much more about my life experiences than my interests in film. At any rate, I felt it was time to give y’all some kind of update since I’ve been a little MIA.
I’ve experienced so many highs and lows this year. More than I can even really put into words, but I’ll try.
I moved into my own apartment, lost friends I thought I would have forever, received a promotion at my first “big girl job”, finally learned how to put a name (
anxiety) to the constant nervousness I’ve felt since childhood, and even started writing again. To my great surprise, and in part because of a social media fast, I started to feel creative again.
I haven’t been blogging much lately, not because I haven’t been watching movies (certainly you know me better than that by now), but because I’ve been all over the place with other things like family, work, and writing of a different kind! More on that later…
Several months ago, my mom and sister got together and wrote a play titled “The Misconception of Love“. They submitted the play to a festival known as Purple Playbill. To our family’s amazement and excitement, the play was selected as a finalist along with three others, all of which were to be cast and then performed as staged readings one Saturday in October.
A few days after sharing the good news, my sister reached out again to tell me that auditions were coming up and that I should go in. As the playwrights, she and my mom actually had the option of casting the show themselves (which is not common practice), and rather than win the role by way of nepotism, I opted to go in without seeking special favors. I didn’t even introduce myself by my full birth name.
I hadn’t been on an audition in probably TEN YEARS and the very thought freaked me out, but I knew I needed to prove to myself that I could actually do it. As someone who is anxious by nature, it’s no surprise that auditioning has NEVER appealed to me. However, I have accepted that it is part of the process. So several weeks ago I said my prayers, meditated on scripture regarding fear, and went in with my head held high.
It wasn’t a grueling audition, however it did last a little longer than I thought it would, which seemed like a good sign. The director actually had me read from a play titled Paper Thin, another script that was a finalist in the competition. I figured getting cast in any play would be great so I didn’t mention Misconception, thinking that it had already been cast.
After the audition came the waiting period……and we all know that silence can be deafening. Thankfully, I had a weekend trip to Oklahoma planned with my co-workers which meant I didn’t have to sit at home waiting by the phone. In between horseback-riding and swigging drinks by the lake, I received an email saying that they wanted to offer me a role in Paper Thin, which was written by another talented local playwright named Leah Hinton.
And not only did I earn a role in Paper Thin, lo and behold I was also cast as the lead in Misconception of Love.
I was feeling pretty good about myself and my abilities at this point. It felt like I hadn’t lost “it.” Like all the dreams I had about performing as a kid were not only valid, but actually still attainable.
I got the chance to work with two incredible directors who have been in the business for years and are really passionate about the arts in general. My cast was just fantastic. I mean, from the first rehearsal I knew we had something special. The material was very rich and everyone was on board with bringing the vision to life.
Then came performance night and alllllll of those little nerves and fears came back with a vengeance. Again, I was mostly hung up on proving something to myself. For maybe the first time in my life, I encouraged myself and gave my own pep talk! I probably looked a little funny, mumbling to myself in the corner waiting to go onstage, but I didn’t care! LOL
All of those worries, anxieties, and fears that I felt completely melted away when I stepped onstage and delivered my first line. When I tell you it was like a dream….the way everything just came together so beautifully.
As if the night wasn’t already wonderful enough, the audience voted and The Misconception of Love won the grand prize of the evening, which meant that our entire cast and crew got to take home a cash prize. It will also go on to be performed in high schools throughout the state of Texas. Talk about feeling vindicated! Every negative word ever spoken over me in an audition or every self-doubt that plagued me at 4 in the morning was completely silenced. I felt God-given peace that can’t even be fully described if you haven’t felt it for yourself (and I pray that you do in your lifetime).
I plan on going out for more auditions. *gasp* It’s not easy putting myself out there, but I recognize that the reward on the other side is worth it. In fact, it seems like the most fearful and uncomfortable things in life often lead to what we want the most. Go figure! I’m not saying I’m quitting my full-time job or moving to LA, but I plan on getting back into acting more regularly. I can’t believe I was functioning this long without it.
My sister and I are in the process of writing a screenplay of our own and we’re really passionate about sharing this story with the world. Who in a million years would’ve thought that Andy and May’s girls were dreaming about being the next great filmmaking duo!?! LOL Certainly not us! But we realized that we have something to contribute to the world, which is a message of hope and inspiration in such a confusing and often scary place. We’re currently brainstorming, researching, and daydreaming about film festivals and rubbing shoulders with Ava DuVernay. I look forward to the day when I can share the completed project with The Andrea Chronicles readers! ❤
Back in 2012 when I first started blogging, I could’ve never dreamed that my site would morph into what it is today, which (hopefully) is a space that promotes positivity and celebrates creativity in the Film and T.V. industry particularly. I don’t do bashing of any kind on this blog, I don’t post spoilers, and I don’t do celebrity gossip. No shade to anyone else, but it’s just not me, nor is it what I want to be known for.
So with all that being said I’m not really sure what the future holds for me exactly, but for the first time in a while I’m feeling excited about it. And I want to send a huuuuuge thank you to my IRL fam and friends, as well as all of my internet friends who read my reviews and comment from time to time. YOU ARE APPRECIATED.
ps. Review for Fast Color coming soon + My October Faves!